Sad to say it’s not. Words cannot explain how overwhelmed I am. I’m flooded with emotions and things to do. First of all, the holidays are upon us and it seems as though it were the holidays only a few month ago. Wow, how does time fly?!?!? Also, I have an announcement to make…In December, I will be forming a single unit household with Mr. Sabb!!!!! Yes, I’m talking cohabitation ya’ll!!!! I’m nervous because I don’t want to mess up our relationship and I’ve never lived with anyone, so I don’t know what to expect. All I can do is be myself and hope that we can grow together for a wonderful future. Also, I’m at a standstill with my goals, I’m so good a defining them but not so good at following through. I don’t why I’m expecting to get different results from my same actions. Who knows what my deal is, but I do distracted easily and I’m not very good at perseverance.
I had to tell him about my financial state and take my guard down and let him in. I knew that he had an idea how irresponsible I was with money, but I’m not sure if he knew how extensive it was. This is always uncomfortable, letting someone in to the deepest darkest parts of your life. But, I figured if we would be sharing a home and a life together, why not share my secrets with him as well. I genuinely want to complete something, anything. Maybe if I had a small victory to keep me strong and give me what I need to continue, I may do better. It’s hard to continue without seeing any light, I’m just not good at that. Having faith in my ability has always been a weakness of mine. How do you have faith in what you’re doing if you can’t see it or any results for that matter?
