Send her your love...

Its been a while since I've blogged. Been sooo busy...school work life all that stuff. Sometimes life can get so hectic theres no stopping the train. But I just wanted to vent today...

Lately I've been feeling like I'm in a relationship rut. I sometimes have to beg for his affection and it's like we are two ships passing in the night. I wish we had a moment to just be together but I wonder if he wants that right now. We went to a wedding this weekend and we barely even danced together; I was the approach-er all two times lol.

I was listening to Stevie Wonder's song Send One Your Love and it really hit home that you need to show people you love them while they're here and not to be afraid to show that. I know people live differently but how do you get used to not feeling it at all? I'm stumped...

Have a good night everyone :)

Big Shirley and other things

Good morning everyone!  HAPPY FRIDAY EVE!!!!  I'm actually glad it's almost Friday, this week has been too much for me.  First week of classes, my workouts did not exist, I'm trying to focus more on foods that feed my body and not my desires...yadda, yadda, yadda...

Anywho...I did something this morning...I introduced Brian to my inner and outer fat girl...Shirley.  Shirley is the beast who can eat everything in sight without thinking.  Well this morning we were in bed, I was on my phone looking at the Groupon's for today and low and behold it was for cupcakes.  My hopeful little skinny chick, Anya (I'll introduce her to you guys later) had a little quick dialogue
Anya: nope, we don't need cupcakes!  Feed your body, not your desires girl!
Me: True, let's get of this mess right now!
Anya: Yes, I concur.
Me: puts my phone down besides me, while still laying down I remind you.
Shirley: Bitch, I'm gonna get these damn cupcakes!!!  Hell, I'm not starving for no body! Proceeds to use my elbow to purchase said Groupon.
Me: Oh wait let me get my phone...
Brian: You just bought a Groupon?
Me: No I didn't, I couldn't have...
Brian: Oh yes you did!!!  $10 for something (he proceeds to read the shame that is now on my phone and in my Groupon account) $10 for $20 worth of cupcakes!!! 
Me: I didn't want that Groupon (proceeds to tell him about Shirley)
Brian: Big Shirley wanted those cupcakes!!!  (he added Big, not me!  I would never call her out like that).
Me: Stop, I'm offended - I didn't tell you about Shirley to exploit me and hurt my feelings.
Anya: Oh no, how did that fat bitch buy some damn cupcakes!
Shirley: Skinny Bitch, you will never appreciate those cupcakes as much as I do!!!!
Me: You two stop it!! We have to work together you guys!
Brian: Damn, Big Shirley wasn't playing!!!

{End Scene}

Now, do you see the type of morning I had y'all?!?!?!  I'm exhausted and now the proud owner of $20 worth of cupcakes for $10

And I'm out this MF!

Monday Mantra

My mantra for this morning is...You can do this, don't give up because victory is so sweet...

Today and tomorrow...possibly Wednesday, I will be doing a liquid fast Ro Style Check her out, she's a beast when it comes to the liquid fast!  I'm doing this because I just got back from the Chuck (Charleston, SC) and ate a little more than necessary.  So today and tomorrow I will be clearing my head and preparing my body for a great food week.

I started this morning off with a banana smoothie - frozen banana, milk and a little packet of sweetener.  It was so good, even on a cool day!

Here's what I have lined up for me today, in addition to a lot of H2O!

Naked juice Green Machine and Protein Boost, some chai tea (currently drinking with milk), Lipton cup a soup (last damn cream of chicken on the shelf).  I may throw another smoothie or protein shake up in the mix.

Happy Monday everyone!