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Is it over yet????

Sad to say it’s not.  Words cannot explain how overwhelmed I am.  I’m flooded with emotions and things to do.  First of all, the holidays are upon us and it seems as though it were the holidays only a few month ago.  Wow, how does time fly?!?!?  Also, I have an announcement to make…In December, I will be forming a single unit household with Mr. Sabb!!!!!  Yes, I’m talking cohabitation ya’ll!!!!  I’m nervous because I don’t want to mess up our relationship and I’ve never lived with anyone, so I don’t know what to expect.  All I can do is be myself and hope that we can grow together for a wonderful future.  Also, I’m at a standstill with my goals, I’m so good a defining them but not so good at following through.  I don’t why I’m expecting to get different results from my same actions.  Who knows what my deal is, but I do distracted easily and I’m not very good at perseverance.  

I had to tell him about my financial state and take my guard down and let him in.  I knew that he had an idea how irresponsible I was with money, but I’m not sure if he knew how extensive it was.  This is always uncomfortable, letting someone in to the deepest darkest parts of your life.  But, I figured if we would be sharing a home and a life together, why not share my secrets with him as well.  I genuinely want to complete something, anything.  Maybe if I had a small victory to keep me strong and give me what I need to continue, I may do better.  It’s hard to continue without seeing any light, I’m just not good at that.  Having faith in my ability has always been a weakness of mine.  How do you have faith in what you’re doing if you can’t see it or any results for that matter?

Taking some stats

I’ve really been eating like a pig lately and now it’s time to pay the piper.  Today I really do believe my arch fell, my foot is so sore it’s almost on fire.  However, I still wanted to get some sort of a workout done.  I attempted Jillian’s 30 day Shred and I only finished 2 circuits!  Oh well, I tried.  I’m so sore and out of shape.  I’m going to do this for 30 days, so I will post how I finish and what I’ve completed. 

I also took some measurements today – ugh, it’s murder!!!!

Body Part	Measurement
Arm	14.5
Chest
Stomach	40
Waist	38
Hips	43
Thigh	26
Calf	17
TOTAL INCHES	221.5

I’m a freaking BOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plan of action - Part I

Time to hit my issues HARD!!!!  Here's a little run down of how I plan to handle these "situations".  Okay, as far as the whole debt/broke nation thing here's what I hope to do.
- Work on my resume and have a finalized copy by Friday.  A girlfriend of mine has a how to market yourself book that I will be utilizing to accomplish this task.
- Until I'm able to find a position paying more money, I plan to work overtime on a pretty consistent basis so that I can have some extra cash coming in.  With my restrictions, I'm not able to go monkey nuts with the OT maybe one hour a day, but hey every hour adds up.
- Tighten up the financial belt!  This is a biggie, I will be going to the 99/1 rule - 99% of the focus goes to my NEEDS and only 1% to my WANTS.  That means minimal fun, but maximized funds!
- Pay bills consistently and on time!!!  I can't stress this one enough!!!!

Losing weight situation!!!  This one is simple, but it's hard for me to follow
- Make healthier choices
- Track what I eat in Calorie King
- Work out consistently

One month at a time - October

I've decided to take this thing one month at a time.  Define attainable goals that I can focus on to chip away at bolder rock that's in front of me.  It's not easy to put myself out there financially and personally; but hey, if I can post bra pictures of the gut I can do this.  I will check in weekly with my goals to assess my progress and then post a month end assessment to see if I stayed on target.  My long term goals are not my focus right now, however I will post them one day.

October goals:

1. Set up payment arrangements with my two most delinquent credit cards
2. Go paperless and update my contact/address information with all my peeps
3. Plan out my meals and snacks so I don't have to spend extra money and time on buying them.  This will also help with my eating plan
4. Fall clothes shopping for my daughter and I - try to find the best deals for my money
5. Do something free every week with my daughter
6. Come up with a budget that I can stick too
7. Organize my coupons
8. Clean my desk and shred unwanted paper work

Wow!!  I can already cross one off my list, YAY!!!!!

I'm so ashamed...

I really am ashamed, REALLY!!!

Since my last blog post I've been dealing with many ups and downs.  Not only on the scale, but in my life PERIOD.  I'm at point in my life where I'm utterly dissatisfied with how I've handled certain situations and not really sure how to deal with them from here on out.  Let me explain this in detail, bullet points are usually my go-to way of getting my ideas across in an organized manner.

• My weight has pretty much been the bane of my existence.  I'm at a point where I'm ready to see changes but not really able to...which leads into my second bullet point
• I'm unhappy with my current career and financial situation.  I've made some very lousy financial and career decision in my past and now they have crept up to bite me directly in the ass!  I worry about money, paying my bills, reducing/eliminating debt, starting a savings, finding a new position that would lead me into a career, being bored at work, not really sure how to find another job...etc, etc.  All of this makes me extremely anxious and worried about my future.  As a result of my stress, I snack!  And boy do I do it well.  I don't snack on healthy things, I snack on Snicker bars, kettle corn, ice cream, cookies, chips and the list goes on and on.
• I'm confused as to how I will find stress relief and not really able to make a plan because it seems like everything is coming down on me at once and everything is an absolute priority at the present time. 

I've neglected my blog for far too long and now it's time to be a big girl and sort some things out in my crazy life.  I never meant for my blog to be categorized as one thing or another, but I think its going into the direction of a "get your shit together" blog.  A place where I can publicize and track my goals, release some steam and hopefully see some light at the end of this tunnel.

Buckle up, it's gonna be a bumpy ride!!!!