Hey Life…

At this moment I can most honestly say that I am just along for the ride. On this road that my life has chosen for me, I am merely and passenger. No control, what so ever. Clearly, I am being taught serious lesson in releasing my grip and just being patient.  I was hoping to be writing a post on completing another task off my bucket list, but that has been put on hold. 

With these last few weeks, I have placed many wants and desires into the universe – just hoping to see what comes back down to surprise me. Hopefully, it will be all good; but most of all I hope it just BE. I have a busy week ahead of me; lots of appointments, work, fun, and decisions. While I take some time to ponder where this road is headed, I will leave you with this…

Dear Life,

Whatever it is you’re trying to teach me…I am here to learn.

Sincerely,

Mitzi

Adjustments

Hey everyone!!! It's been a little while since I've posted; happy to have one thing crossed off my list and moving on to the next (two weeks away). These past few weeks have introduced some changes in my life. For one, I'm starting to feel very confident with being a 30-year old woman. It's almost as if a switch was turned on and now things that used to get on my nerves don't, and I have a confidence seed sprouting inside me. That 'I can take over the world' feeling.



That's my sexy and I know it picture lol!

Other changes that have happened are on the home-front. Brian found a job in a city about an hour away, so he moved to make way for Mia and I. I'm so happy for him, it's been a hell of a year, but the changes are a little strange. I'm so used to having him there and it's a weird feeling to come home and he's not home. I will get used to it, but hopefully by the time that I do we will be reunited. So now I've come to grips with the idea of the job search and leaving colonial. I've been there a long time and that's a change in itself. A change I will welcome. Hopefully the moves I make this summer will be the caveat I need to cross some things off my list and approach this new decade like a real diva would.

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So with so many changes, how am I going to handle everything? With style and grace - a classy woman till the end.

Smooches

Tag baby!!!!

Ebb’s at Fitness and everything else had this on her blog and I jumped right on in!!!

1. If you had 10 minutes to be on a popular television show, which show would it be?  I would choose True Blood! I just want to touch Eric and be in Lafayette’s presence. OMG, I love that show!! June 10th for my True Blood fans!

2. If you could have one superpower what would it be?  It I’m totally going with Ebb's with this one – I would be able to read peoples minds, I’m nosey too, lol!

3. What TV show are you embarrassed about watching? Basketball wives for sure, I hate it and love it at the same damn time!

4. What is your favorite book? I have so many, my most recent favorite would be Perfect Peace. If you haven’t read it, please get you a copy!

5. What is the worst flavor of ice cream? Rum raisin….ewwww..

6. What is your favorite condiment? Mayo…for shame…

7. What is the ideal comfort food? Red velvet cake

8. What is the most important meal of the day? Dinner, it’s how I wind down my day, yum!

9. What is your dream job?  To be an evil hospital bureaucrat! Don’t judge me!

10. What subject do you wish you had paid more attention to in school? Science

11. What musical instrument do you wish you could play?  The violin, such an elegant instrument

Goal number 23 – Mission Complete!!!

Paint a piece of artwork for my new home (see goal #3)

This weekend was my birthday weekend and the girls and I are trying to implement a monthly girls weekend or girls night out. So guess what, May was my month and I chose to do a Grapes and Gallery night where we paint and drink wine. Totally had my bucket list in mind when planning this outing!

This was SOOOO much fun! first we went to eat at Myabi’s – Spider roll and Dragon Roll on deck. This was AMAZING!!!  The spider roll was a soft shell crab and the dragon roll was a crab and tuna roll. So good!!

Here are some pics from the event!  Our painting for the night was poppies – so easy to do, and painting is so relaxing….almost puts you in a trance.

 

My friend’s Dana and Allison

My tools, the wine was VERY necessary

We are ready (Sheena and Allison)

That’s my girl Robyn AKA Beedjka!!!

Dana giving me some birthday love – Love these girls!!!

Allison and I being silly!

 

My painting – just started with the grass and clouds

 

Adding some more details!

The finished painting, I was so proud!!!!

All-in-all, we had an awesome time!  We laughed, joked, drank, and painted until we could paint anymore. And the cool thing about the class is that even though we did the same painting, everyone’s painting was different! 

Smooches from the MNC + 1 – She was adopted into our circle, lol!

Happy Memorial Day and please don’t forget to thank those who have served and who are serving our country!!!

Happy birthday to me!!!

Hey y'all. See you real soon!!! It's my birthday please stand by while I celebrate!!!




Smooches!!!

This time…

This is an intimate post for me because I’m about to share a journal entry with you all…journals are usually private but today I feel like I should share this one.  It’s long, so please bare with me…

Sitting here at the lake the eve before my 30th birthday and my heart and mind are so full. Full with ideas, concerns, fears, and realities. So many things have taken place in my 20s, I would have to write this whole entire book. Some good, some great, some bad, some worse. One thing I learned from my 20s, and still learning to grasp today, is that I can't stop things from happening, I can only change how I let it affect me. I've been hurt (in my opinion beyond measure) I’ve been let down, I’ve been put off, I've been uplifted, I've been given a second chance, I've been through a lot. But not once I stop moving, keep going until you can’t go anymore. Go you're dead-work at me until I quit breathing-take care Mitzi until her heart stops beating. Loving me was a challenge and it still is most days. I love everyone else but Mitzi. I don't know when it came to be like this; maybe it's my body image issues, maybe it's because I never learned to love myself, who knows. Somehow I let the most important person in my life go and how do I convince her to come back-how do I show her that this time I want it all. To love her and to show her how much she means to me. So often I left her devastated-no wonder she's lost. Learning to love all over again is a risk to take, but I will take it for her.

So looking back, my mistakes became my blessing in my goals that I've put on hold have followed me to this place. So much on my mind and so many things undone, I panic now because there's a possibility that I won't make it home alive and there's a possibility I won’t see my birthday tomorrow. All things are possible in this world, so could it be possible that I could look back at my 30s and smile because those were the best years of my life? Possibly... Could I look back at my 30s and say that I’ve earned the love of my life back and I love her fiercely? Possibly... This road I leave behind, but ahead lies the mystery-such is life. I hate mysteries I hate chance-I hate playing the odds so possibly is all I have right now. Sometimes I feel like if I put all of my desires out into the universe there is the better chance they may come back to me-that was “in my 20s Mitzi”. I could never let things evolve without my immediate help or input-that was also “in my 20s Mitzi”. So much wasted energy, how did “in my 20s Mitzi” make it through the last decade?'

 

There is one thing I won't do this decade and the ones hopefully the follow-I will not waste my energy and time on trying to control the uncontrollable or trying to figure people out. No more will I worry about who loves and accepts me-wasted energy. It seems like I’m taking the whole FUCK YOU approach, but I feel I spent too much of my time wasting my energy on the wrong shit. If there is an alternate world where I'm turning 20 tomorrow instead of 30, I would tell me to just breathe and that is easier to carry on when you don't have so much baggage to carry. Smile and love, but love yourself first. Accepted your decisions and stand by them, don't back down for anyone. And most of all... Enjoy your 20s because they go by fast.

So that's it in a nutshell my last day in my 20s.

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