Hi everyone! I hope you all are having a great week so far!! I just wanted to drop a quick line to let you know I’m still alive. I have a final paper due on Sunday, work is going slllooooowwwwllllyyyyyy, Gold’s Gym and their lovely staff is kicking my butt, and I miss you guys :( But, I’ll be back in full effect in a few days!!
SMOOCHES ALL!!!!
I didn’t tell my boyfriend about me doing something that I may or may not have supposed to do, lol! But he found out just now!!!
I’ve been thinking about joining Gold’s Gym really hard. I’ve currently realized that I’m not a solo workout type person. I do much better when I go to group classes because I feel obligated to continue because I don’t want to look like a quitter while everyone else is still working out. I’m much more inclined to finish a class when eyes are watching me. Does that sound weird to you guys? I’m not sure why I’m like this, but part of the journey is self discovery, right? Currently they’re offering a special so I’m going to go on Saturday to see what it’s all about and weigh my options. As of right now, the pros are it’s close, they offer a lot of different group fitness classes that I can go to and the cons are an added expense to my budget.
Oh well, I’ll definitely let you all know what I decide.
Sad to say it’s not. Words cannot explain how overwhelmed I am. I’m flooded with emotions and things to do. First of all, the holidays are upon us and it seems as though it were the holidays only a few month ago. Wow, how does time fly?!?!? Also, I have an announcement to make…In December, I will be forming a single unit household with Mr. Sabb!!!!! Yes, I’m talking cohabitation ya’ll!!!! I’m nervous because I don’t want to mess up our relationship and I’ve never lived with anyone, so I don’t know what to expect. All I can do is be myself and hope that we can grow together for a wonderful future. Also, I’m at a standstill with my goals, I’m so good a defining them but not so good at following through. I don’t why I’m expecting to get different results from my same actions. Who knows what my deal is, but I do distracted easily and I’m not very good at perseverance.
I had to tell him about my financial state and take my guard down and let him in. I knew that he had an idea how irresponsible I was with money, but I’m not sure if he knew how extensive it was. This is always uncomfortable, letting someone in to the deepest darkest parts of your life. But, I figured if we would be sharing a home and a life together, why not share my secrets with him as well. I genuinely want to complete something, anything. Maybe if I had a small victory to keep me strong and give me what I need to continue, I may do better. It’s hard to continue without seeing any light, I’m just not good at that. Having faith in my ability has always been a weakness of mine. How do you have faith in what you’re doing if you can’t see it or any results for that matter?
I’ve really been eating like a pig lately and now it’s time to pay the piper. Today I really do believe my arch fell, my foot is so sore it’s almost on fire. However, I still wanted to get some sort of a workout done. I attempted Jillian’s 30 day Shred and I only finished 2 circuits! Oh well, I tried. I’m so sore and out of shape. I’m going to do this for 30 days, so I will post how I finish and what I’ve completed.
I also took some measurements today – ugh, it’s murder!!!!
| Body Part | Measurement |
| Arm | 14.5 |
| Chest | |
| Stomach | 40 |
| Waist | 38 |
| Hips | 43 |
| Thigh | 26 |
| Calf | 17 |
| TOTAL INCHES | 221.5 |
I’m a freaking BOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Toot and ants don't mix |
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| That's him!!! |
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| Fat toot, but not for long!! |
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| Tried to get a panoramic sweep, my hand is not so steady! |
For anyone who doesn’t know me, I have a sweet baby girl. Well, she’s not really a baby anymore she’s six. But, a while back when she was two I made the decision to follow my goals and allow her to stay with my parents until I achieved them. I’ve had my ups and my downs, and my fare share of set backs. I can no longer be separated from my baby. She is my life and I just want my air back. So, I’ve put my graduate degree on the back burner (just for a little while, until she’s a little older) and I’ve decided to bring her back to me. So…as of August, Ladybug will be starting school here where I am and we will start our little piece of perfect. I know it’s gonna be hard, for everyone. I am so grateful to my parents for all they have done. But I really do feel it’s time that I bring my little family together.
Look who we have here! It’s a slacker writing on a blog that she promised to keep up to date and interesting. Well, what can I say? I am a slacker and I’m trying to change that slowly, not too fast because I can’t handle change very well. Summer school has begun and I’m trying to decide if I’m going to make the blog updates an everyday, every other day or once a week thing. Who knows. Right now I’m procrastinating so I’m updating to keep from facing reality!!!
Don’t worry, I’ll be back….
Pictures to follow…Hey ya’ll (Imma SOUTHERN girl!!!). I just wanted to do a pre-post for tonight since I’m running late…AGAIN!!! I’m back on the get healthy, get fit way of life. I’m always inspired by people in the blog world, but please check Blackandi’s blog!!! She’s amazing! Toned and she sure as hell works hard to get it. I would like to tone, build muscle and lose fat now more than ever since I know what my body fat % is. I’m keeping you in the dark until my evening post. Anywho, check her out and read about her journey.
Toodles,
Toot!!
Tomorrow morning, I will be doing the 30 day shred DVD. Level 1; 22 minutes with Jillian Michaels is going to be a trip. I will also be posting my food journal (hated it) and posting pictures of my body (not nekkid) at 200+ lbs. Haven’t weighed in yet, just waiting for the moment where my nerves enter the building. For some reason they’re still parking the car. Well, tomorrow you will get to see all that I have to work on!
Have a peachy evening everyone!
Hi everyone!!! I’m back from my temporary hiatus. I missed blogging and reading everyone’s blog. But, I’m done with the Spring Semester and happy to say I have a new LONG list of things to do! I am going to accomplish them, one at a time. But, I promised the CEO that I will track my food and stay within my points everyday until my birthday trip. If not, dinner in the ATL is on me. So, here’s my list!!!
I’m ready and will be updating my status on a daily basis.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the blogging Mommies!!!
I felt very inclined to write this post giving the past week (a great deal of senseless binging going on). I’m doing the Weight Watchers plan and paying for it to. I’ve lost a lot of money on weight loss programs in the past, but I’m determined to make this future endeavor work for me. So, I’m challenging myself to weigh in (that’s the first step) and to post my food journals for the next 30 days. I need some type of accountability is this joint.
Have a peachy day!!
Yeah, I’ve fell victim to the end of the semester trap!!!! I promise, I will be back with more Toot Antics. Until then, Smooches!!!
I had a lovely weekend with Ladybug!! She spent a couple of days with her daddy in Greenville and the remainder of her spring break with me! Needless to say, I’ve been eating like a kid all weekend, lol! Can you say Dinosaur shaped chicken tenders and fries, oh and let us not forget honey mustard sauce. On top of that, I had a baking spell last night and made lemon bars. Toot loves to bake; it’s relaxing for me. It’s something about mixing flour, sugar and other things together, popping it in the oven and it coming out super duper yummy. On top of that, I’m always searching for recipes to try. My downfall. But in my defense, I’ve been stressed this week and I used whole wheat flour. Not my fav, but okay.
While texting Gangstaboo, I inquired about signing up for Weight Watchers, AGAIN!! She is signing up Monday and I think I’ll tag along. Weight Watchers does work, you just have to be disciplined and following the healthy guidelines. I have materials from the millions of times I’ve joined before. Based on everything, I’m allowed 26 points a day. Let’s try this again!
I woke up this morning with a headache, ouch! So I had a very uninvolved Trader Joe’s pumpkin pancake for breakfast. Need to have a Trader Joe’s closer to where I live. Maybe, once I graduate and find a position, there will be one near by. Oh, and here she is…
And now, for a little how-to. I know this is probably on everyone’s blog, but it’s not on mine :)
HOW THIS BROKE GIRL MAKES GREEK YOGURT
I am entirely too poor to afford the name brand Greek Yogurts, although very yummy; I can’t deal with paying $1 and some change for a small container of yogurt. So here it is! Here’s what you’ll need…
So, there you have it! My broke cost effective way to achieve Greek Yogurt at home!
Feeling ultra uncomfortable with my body and not really sure if I have the stamina to deal with the highs and lows of weight loss. I’m tired of all of this, but I’m not sure what to do. That little diva in the picture is Ladybug, she’s my daughter. I’m sick of being the elephant in the room. But, I just don’t know what to do. Giving it more than a week is hard! I’ve gained and I know why, but this is ridiculous. Maybe I will find the motivation!
…Just Maybe…
Starting Weight: 208.4 lbs
Current Weight: 210.80
Total Loss/Gain: 2.4 gain
I’ll post my failures, successes and game plan for this week tonight.
------>goes to hang my head in shame…
I forgot to post my Starting weight! No, I didn’t forget I just didn’t want to post it. I’m ashamed of myself. Because at 208.5 lbs I am obese!!! Obese I tell you!!! The end…
That's a question that I've been asking myself for a while now. How do I reverse all the bad things that I have done to myself? How do I deal with the fact right now I can only move but so fast to reach my goals? How do I make myself feel beautiful and worthy of good things? How do I handle frustrations? How do I vanish my doubts? and a biggie question for me; How do I get over the anxiety of failing?
For the past month or so, I've had so much anxiety building up that I want to close myself off from my dreams so I don't have to face the fact that I might fail. Why is it so much easier giving up than sticking it out and giving it the biggest fight that I have inside of me? At the very moment I feel defeated, I run and try to cover my face so it can't see my fear! When will I learn how to fight?!?!? I'm not without support systems, but I just don't know how to ask for the support I need. Some days I find myself crying because my heart is so full; but I'm not quite sure if this is me or the new hormones that taking over my body (long story). I just want to do what's right, but I find it easier to please others and do the right thing for them instead of me. I'm moving at a turtle's pace and I truly hate it. But, then I think back to the story to realize the turtle finished the race. No matter how slow, or hard, or tiring, or boring, he finished the race and won it!! It seems that because I'm so uncomfortable in this spot, it's reflecting on how I deal with my life and insecurities. I mean, let's face it; we all have insecurities, but man, can I just have a front until I can sort some of them out?
I'm in the process of cleaning my apartment for a move. I'm tired of living there, maintenance sucks and it doesn't feel like home anymore. I am also cleaning my emotional and physcial house! I'm not happy in the state that I'm in right now and it's time to move. I'm the only person that can do it, and I know it's going to be a lonely road. Am I ready? How hard will it be? At times, I want to be sheltered by him so I don't have to go it alone. I ask him questions to reassure myself that I am okay. I drill him about my position in his life so I can feel more confident. I hope that he doesn't see my flaws, but I know he does. I find it hard to believe that it doesn't bother him, but I hope that he can see the future and not who I was or who I am. It's who I'm becoming that counts. I hope that she will be proud of me for my accomplishments. I hope that she will look up to me and try her best to be better than me. I hope she knows how much I want to set my bar high for her, so she can acheive great things, because I dream to look up and see her bar above me. I hope that one day she will read this and know who I was and who I have become.
And...him, if you are reading this - I miss your comments so much!
This is a new week with old goals and new inspiration. My birthday is ten weeks away. That gives me an abundant amount of time to lose 10 lbs (a pound a week). That gives me ten weeks to stick to something so that I can make some headway with my list. On my last post I didn’t elaborate on my plans, just the skeleton. I ventured to Target today and bought two biggest loser DVDs, on sale for $9.00 – Happy dance.
On to the other goals, STUDY, STUDY, STUDY!!! That will be my life for the next few weeks. I will be at my desk in the afternoons working on my craft. If accounting is going to be my life then I’m must put the effort into it. No more putting it on the back burner. I can only take this one day at a time! No other way for me to put it .
On a lighter note, I had a date last night. A wonderful movie and dinner date; and I’m so happy!!! Sad that tomorrow is Monday, but since I’m starting to get my focus on…BRING IT ON!!!!!
I am declaring that by my birthday, May 25, I will be down 10 lbs!!!!
Starting weight: 205.8
Plan: 30 day shred 3 days a week, cardio 3 days a week
Take pictures and post what I eat (the budding food blogger)
and the….
Well, it’s been a few days since the last post. So far, I enjoy blogging about things other than my weight loss journey (although that is an integral part of why I’m doing this). It’s a long and hard process, I’m sick of it right now and I haven’t even started all the way. What is my problem? I’m just at a point now where my patience is running thin; who am I kidding it’s always been then. Where in the hell is my patience…good time to write a letter begging for my patience to come back.
Dear Patience,
Where are, where have you been? I hope all is well, but right now I really need you. I need you to be there for me and help me through my trials and what not. This is impossible without you, but I know that I have to make an effort to get you here. Okay, I’m going to lay everything out on the line; I’m failing at this and I can’t possibly see myself doing it; unless you are here with me. I’ve taken you for granted so many times and now I’m all in. I’m all in, Patience. The only other component I need is you.
Signed,
Mitzi
Okay, there it is – let’s see if this brings her back.
Oh, and let’s not forget about the NEW NEW…presenting the NEW Toot!!!
Monday…ughhh! But at least I’m alive to enjoy this beautifully hectic Monday. I am again horrified by the thought of having to complete my XBRL project and still learning how to be a night owl and early bird at the same time. This is going to be very hard for me since I’m not a late person or an early person, sucksville!! Anyway, I had the most improtu menu today; no planning at all. McDonalds for breakfast; sausage egg and cheese McMuffin (this is going on my “must have once a month” list). Sad to say, these are the best breakfast sandwiches EVER – totally rocks my face off. At one time I attempted to make my own, no comparison. Then for lunch, an egg salad sandwich BEAST from the Village Gourmet with feta orzo pasta salad on the side. I also got something else from there, but that will be mentioned later.
So, I’m watching The No. 1 Ladies’ Detective Agency with Jill Scott; lovely BBW (Big Beautiful Woman) and someone made a comment about her weight. Prior note, this series is set in Africa. Her response, I love, “I am a traditional woman, the preference of most men”. Go on girl!!! Now, I’m a traditional woman but my health issues are nothing but traditional. I would love to be that confident in my size and current health status, but right now I’m not. That's why I have to make some moves, shake some things up and get it cracking up in here before it’s too late.
- I wonder what Toot can get into tomorrow???? Hmmmm, something to think about.
Remember the before I turn 30 list (aka Bucket List) i was telling you all about? I shall now reveal the bane of my existence; seems like I will never be able to cross anything off.
As I look at the list, it’s not long but very intimidating because everything on it has so many components that takes a great deal of time to complete. For all who may not know me, I’m not a patient person. It’s not easy to keep telling myself “one day at a time” because I get bored and distracted easily. I have the attention span of a lima bean and it sucks! I’ve been doing Calorie King religiously for almost 2 weeks now and I’m already feeling that I should have lost 20 lbs by now. I’ve completed 2 months of my payment schedule for my bills and I believe I should be debt-free with a perfect credit score by now. See, I’m a quick results kind of person. Sometimes quick results are not what we need because we need to feel the process to be appreciative of the results that lie ahead. If I go through the fire to achieve my goals, I won’t take them for granting and then relapse into the same dangerous pattern that got me at that place before. I always tell myself; you never get what you want (not entirely anyway) but always seem to get what you need.
Today was mucho interesting – not in the sense of an interesting event, just interesting that I got my butt up and went to circuit. Our company has an excellent wellness center that offers classes throughout the day. Since I’m in school during the day, I can’t take classes because I spend most of my time making up the time that I’ve been away. This week, however, I’m on Spring Break!!! That’s not a big deal for working adult students, because we still have to go to work and go on with our daily schedule. So I went to the gym :) glad to say that I did cause I really wanted to stay in my chair, wrapped up in my blanket (since it’s such a gloomy day).
I start my days the exact same way, every time, no deviation. A cup of Joe (preferably a Latte 1/2 skim and 1/2 coffee to keep me satisfied). And I enjoy it in my Pluto mug!!!
These bad boys are so sweet and crunchy, I can’t resist them. And as an added bonus, they are very healthy. I picked them up because they were cute (yeah, I’m a shallow bitch, and what) but I fell in love because I got to know them on a deeper level. We are so a match made in heaven.
I’m still trying to find the balance in my life, but I think things are starting to come together. My old blog was a constant reminder of my start and stop pattern. So, I started a new one that I will be able to keep up with more easily, thanks to Windows Live. Love this shizzzz!! I can work on my blog like I’m making a word document and it’s so easy. Needless to say I want to marry love my computer. So, what is this blog going to be about? Let’s just say it’s about a lot of things, my life is all over the place so why not document it all.
I’m a mother, a student, a daughter, a friend, a lover – a whole lot of things! Why not share it all? -----> to the blog post!
I have a cold; it’s been coming down on me for about a week now and finally caught up with my behind. See, I’m on this mission to lose weight (on my Before I Turn 30 list – coming soon to a blog near you). I’m always TRYING to eat healthy, but I won’t exercise to save my life. Enter Gangstaboo ---> She’s my home girl from work, exercises like tomorrow won’t come and is doing very well I might add. So today, we decided to go running outside (such a beautiful day). But hey, I have a cold and my inhaler is at home in my gym bag…pretty freaking smart Mitzi. But what did I do? I was a trooper and ran 45 minutes with burning lungs, a stuffy nose, throbbing head! All I can say is….
GOOOOO TOOT!!!!
Right now, I’m playing with my new computer and about to leave so I can catch a run with Gangstaboo. I’ll be back…
